just unearthed my old electron keyboard
shall give it a go i guess
i'm gna enroll in some piano lessons after the O's
its been like almost 9 years since i last attended piano lessons
tsk. hated every minute of it cos the keys were in black and white!
and then i picked up classical guitar instead and i've been playing for bout lets see.. 8 years i guess. but i'm terrible in strumming. well. not totally terrible but i only recently switched to contemporary guitar 2 years ago.
so if you ask me to play some ludwig or some john william pieces i'll prolly do a rather good job but if you'd ask me to play some heavy strumming songs i'll prolly be at a loss.
anyway back to the piano lessons.
its really dusty. and i've found my ancient grade 3 piano book! muhaha. lets see.. they've got christmas songs!! shall go learn some cheery ones like jingle bells and sliver bells! :D
and then after that i shall attempt some other songs!
wish me luck!
ok.. now how do i switch on this thing! GAH!

Friday, November 06, 2009



Did the best that I could
Said I'd die for you and I would
But I drowned all those feelings in the flood
Need to know if you're there
If you're listening to my prayers to my tears
Feel like raindrops through the mud
How was I to know that a year ago
I'd need to read between the lines
And every lie and that's why
Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
Living FastDying young
But I'm living with what you've done
Now I face accusationsI won't run
No I'm starting to remember things that you said
I'm unravelling what they meant
But the world moves on
You're just another oneAnd how can I go on
'Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
But you're never there when I turn around
Every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
And how can I go on'
Cause when I'm in the sun I see your shadow on the ground
But you're never there when I turn around'
Cause every time I fall asleep my dreams are haunted
And every time I close my eyes I'm not alone
And every time I cry I'm right back where you wanted
I try to drown you out so down goes another one
Thursday, November 05, 2009




























i have such hilarious friends
Wednesday, November 04, 2009



gosh! 3 weeks and its almost over!
i'm thinking of making a little card for our nice chief examiner. such a nice chap
tsk.
anyway had geog and phy paper today and twas wasnt what i expected but ohwell its all in God's hands
and had a blast studying with candies! noisy she may seem but had so much laughter and joy!
and frerry just kept telling me all the spoilers to my no.1 fav show. SMALLVILLE. soo sad jimmy died and lex.
tsk.
anyway poor amanda didn't know what we were yakking about. haha SMALLVILLE IS DA BEST! and dione still doesnt know the greatness of oliver queen. HOTTEST MAN EVER. esp the shirtless scene. even frerry agrees with me :D
evidence that justin hartely aka oliver queen is hot




























Wednesday, November 04, 2009






















































beaver bandits!




a picture speaks a thousand words. so no words are needed here.
cept. I MISS YOU GUYS!



Friday, October 16, 2009



so in love with mcfly.
love all their poppy melodies and i definitely can't wait for their new album to COME OUT!!!

my favourite song of theirs for the week :
BALLAD OF PAUL K.




Sunday, October 04, 2009



i think God really spoke to me. ps. nabal part is the confrontation between david and abigail. it just got sent to my mail.


FORBEARING One ANOTHER
-by David Wilkerson.

"Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye"
(Colossians 3:13, italics mine).

Forbearing and forgiving are two different issues. Forbearing means ceasing from all acts and thoughts of revenge. It says, in other words, "Don't take matters into your own hands. Instead, endure the hurt. Lay the matter down and leave it alone."

Yet, forbearing is not just a New Testament concept. Proverbs tells us, "Say not, I will do so to him as he hath done to me: I will render to the man according to his work" (Proverbs 24:29). We are given a powerful example of this admonition in David's life. He was in a vengeful rage toward a wicked man named Nabal because Nabal refused to help him when he needed help. David swore revenge but he obeyed God's counsel, "Do not avenge yourself - let the Lord fight your battle." That situation was resolved in a timely manner and David praised God for his intervention. (See 1 Samuel
25 for the entire story.)

David had another opportunity for easy revenge when he found his pursuer, Saul, asleep in a cave, in which David himself was hiding.
David's men urged him, "This is God's doing. He has delivered Saul into your hands. Kill him now, and avenge yourself." But David forbore, instead cutting off a piece of Saul's garment, so he could later prove he could have killed him. Such wise actions are God's ways of putting our enemies to shame, and that was the case when David showed Saul the garment. Saul responded, "Thou art more righteous than I: for thou has rewarded me good, whereas I have rewarded thee evil" (1 Samuel 24:17).

Now we come to forgiving, which encompasses two other
commandments: (1) Loving your enemies and (2) Praying for them.
"I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you" (Matthew 5:44).

One wise old preacher said, "If you can pray for your enemies, you can do all the rest." I have found this to be true in my own life.

Jesus never said the work of forgiving would be easy. When he commanded, "Love your enemies," the Greek word for "love" does not mean "affection" but "moral understanding." Simply put, forgiving someone isn't a matter of stirring up human affection, but making a moral decision to remove hatred from our hearts.

Copyright (c) 2009 World Challenge, Inc.
Friday, October 02, 2009



ok first in english

i think i have the best parents ever and the GREATEST DAD in the entire MESSED UP WORLD
and my friends and other people who totally supports me and are behind me
A GIANT THANK YOU :D
perhaps a giant one isnt enough, A SNOZZINGANOURMOOUS THANK YOU
and here are some ppl i would like to thank ( not arranged in importance)

firstly. ahem. MY DARLING SISTER- for being there and listening to my really repetitive rants all day long and giving me all the woffles when i need them the most. and really no one can ever ever EVER replace you. i would have to say you are not only my most sock rockin sister but i have to say my bestest friend. and even though you werent here today, but the times when you stood by me when i was totally down really means loads to me however dopey i always look. anyway, oh one more thing THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS SCOOPING ICE CREAM FOR ME AND COVERING ME whenever mom calls :] LOVE TO THE MAXX

next: DADDY- i know you were pretty upset for me not telling you bout the whole incident. and i know you were angry at me for not telling you and keeping secrets and not being totally honest with you. and daddy i have never really thanked you for all the times you've fetched me to and fro from school and your unwavering support really really means a lot to me. and though i screw up my exams and do loads of retarded stuff all the time. i have never heard you say any negative stuff bout me or my actions. instead you teach me gently and always giving me Godly advices to find my way. and for that i'm really really thankful that i have such an awesome dad like you. and i'm gna make you a giant thank you card and pen this down too. LOVE TO THE MAX. xx

mom: i know you are never the affectionate sort who unlike daddy showers his love and lavishes it on us all the time. and instead you kept your love tucked away always making me trying to please you. i know you were quite disappointed that i didnt tell you bout such a ""huge"" matter and i chose to keep it from you. i would like to say sorry ma for keeping it from you. didnt really wanna worry you since you're already so busy at work and i know your job's really stressful. hey it aint not easy bein in charge of numbers all the time. (right poa students?) and i know you've been keeping quite all this time cos you wanna give me space and i'm really happy that this episode brought our whole family closer. so i would also like to say I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU. and the whole entire family. inc bunbun

BUNBUN: my dearest loveliest boyfriend. though you are always outside and all you care bout is eating but haha you have been such a stress reliever and the bundle of joy in our family! though i doubt you'll read this but who cares. and i hope i can train you to attack someday.. but we'll just work on sit for now.

ok i shall put abbrev and code names for the next few ppl you should know who you are

my fellow isomer: GAH! there's so much to write bout you but i shall cut it short :] my furry isomer really really greatful to have such a pal like you. always there to joke and find the funny side of everything and although i cant go to the cruise with you, I SHALL SEND YOU OFF :D and also really thank you for bein there un judging and everything :D


the person who meows and sleeps half the time: thank you so so much for always being there armed with your encouragements and the bible verses which helps and you know your advices all mean a lot a lot to me.and i really thank God for such a friend like you :)

woman who shares the same bday: ALRIGHT BROTHER! haha you know your little funny gestures really brighten up my day and really really appreciate all you support and ohoh we are ALL ONE BEAVER! haha and your funny antics cheers me up loads :D so a massive thank you!

sushi mate(tuna) : LOVE YOU. thats all i need to say bout you. really the best mate and pal ever. thanks for being so caring and being so understanding when everyone else is so cynical :]

mrs santa: thanks for being so supportive and such an awesome person in general. :D and man you really cheer me up like a gazzillion thousand times. haha rmb our zouk date :D

let me clump all you together there's too many to thank and show my appreciation to!

to: leopard print woman(d), sad sad de nehx, starfish (shy), naruto, cheng cheng, paramore lover, singtel grid girls guy, van, chemical princess , my card giver and many more

thanks a million trilllion brazziilllionn. really you guys made the day more bearable and thanks for cheerin me up :D
really really owe u guys one


and with that i end it with a quote

am Ende ist das, was einen Helden von den Feiglingen trennt

tsk
so zu dass derjenige, der einen Stoß im Esel verdient. Sie dachten wirklich, dass Sie der Sieger herauskamen? ich sage Ihnen, dass es ich ist, der der äußerste Sieger bin, und während Sie gehen, beweinen Ihren schade Hintern. ich habe meine Freunde mit mir. nehmen Sie das. und zu denjenigen, die kichern. gut habe ich kein Come-Back dafür. Sie gerade bessere Hoffnung, die Sie noch kichern können, wenn Sie Ihren o's bekommen

Friday, October 02, 2009



tmrs gna be a great day i just know it
so everyone whip out your cameras and get ready!
its gna show who the cowards are
so bring it on i aint scared of a twig or a minuscule insect
so i dare you to get me
and be glad i'm ALL SO FORGIVING.
take that.
get a dose of your own poison




Thursday, October 01, 2009



ich bin so müde. kann nicht es mehr nehmen, und auch die Konfrontation ging wirklich, wie geplant, so wie, was sie sagten, dass ich bin wird den bescheidenen Obstkuchen essen und es gerade saugen. irgendwie geht es, um sich zu zeigen, wer der Feigling hier ist. sein offensichtlich sie. ich hoffe, dass keiner darüber lacht, wie hässlich ich schaue, oder wie schwächlich ich scheine. und sie wissen whats nicht wirklich, der hier manchmal weitergeht.
haben Sie Lust, ihr einen Judo-Stoß im Esel zu geben
Wednesday, September 30, 2009